a sad day

Well I sit here brokenhearted and in tears. I will need group hugs later. As some of you know I have an 18 year old cat who was diagnosed with Kidney disease 2 1/2 years ago. We started to give her IVs and put her on a special diet. other than that she was as healthy as a kitten. Well the past couple of months she started losing a little weight and didn't like the IV anymore. Last week she dropped a significant amount of weight and stopped eating on Thursday and most of Friday. DH said she is done and will die in her sleep. Well we tried to give her an IV and she tore into my hand pretty good. i did get some fluids in her and a few hours later she was perky again and eating. She ate Friday night, all day Saturday and Sunday morning then went back into the funk again and it is now Tuesday morning and she still has not eaten since Sunday morning. She can't seem to get comfortable and i think because she is all bones now that she is having a little trouble walking or she is just dizzy from not eating. i took her to bed with me last night and told her I love her and she is such a good girl and she has permission to go to the rainbow bridge. This morning she is still with us and I am making an appointment with the vet today so she can join my other cats and dogs at the rainbow bridge. This is the best thing for her and she has led a great life. We have 4 other cats who are not lap cats and lovey. She is my stitching cat and always loved to be held and carried on my shoulders, except for the past week. I will have a very big void in my life without her.